Absolutely nothing

by Chloe   Aug 22, 2004


I'll tell you a story about my life,
or should I say despair?
It's not worthy of being lived,
it's just a horrible nightmare.

My sister, she's so mean,
she likes to see me frown,
it's incredible how people feel tall
by bringing others down.

My mother always yelling,
she's never really there,
to her I'm just the biggest failure,
about me she doesn't care.

My father, he's the reason,
for the first time I slit my wrists,
whenever I say something wrong,
he must use his fist.

I used to have a so called friend,
making me cry was such a thrill,
some people just don't seem to know
that words can truly kill.

At school I'm always hiding,
I'm always sitting behind dark trees,
I am nothing to anyone,
I am the girl that no one sees.

I am always throwing up,
the food I eat at meals,
I have developed bulimia,
and no one knows how it feels.

I gave my heart to this boy,
the heart that was so black,
everything seemed to be all right,
till I got it broken back.

I have never really felt love,
each day my hope grows less,
I have never been able to smile,
never have I felt happiness.

I feel so fake,
I always hide,
no one can see
how I feel inside.

And if you ever wonder,
why my world is so dark,
look at my arms
and count every mark.

The marks represent
all the painful years,
it hasn't been a day
I haven't shed tears.

Will anyone catch me?
That person I haven't found,
into death I will keep on falling,
today I will hit the ground.

My wrists are bleeding,
I will soon disappear,
and absolutely no one,
will shed a tear.

Don't even bother asking why,
why I couldn't stay,
I can finally spread my wings,
because I died today.

Dedicated to a friend (you know who you are)

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  • 17 years ago

    by Meghan

    This poem is amazing, especially since it wasn't your experience. You said it so well, and it was just... breathtakingly sad.

  • 20 years ago

    by Jamie

    Oh hunnie...that was amazing. Your words sent chills through my body and tears to my eyes. I can relate to so mcuh you said...the scars, the bulimia, the loeliness, the family problems. Life is so hard...but instead of spreading your wings at deasth...think about this...we were given wings to fly....so why prefer to crawl through life? That was so amazing...so talented....please, if you ever have any spare tiem i would love it you could vote/comment/critisize or whatever on soem of my poems and let me know what you think. They may not be the best but they ate least all come straight from my heart. Some of the most meaningful to me are "anorexia please hear my cry" and "a letter to my enemies" and "lost cutter" and then my newest is "complexities unknown". I just would love if someone who has opne awards and who obviously was blessed by God with inspirational words cpoulkd comment and vote on mine. I have only been a member here for about a month but i have already grown to respect so amny writers here. Thank you for your touching words.

    Luv Jamie

  • 20 years ago

    by nikki

    excellent in a sad way. and i'm aanother one of those people who can relate.
    xnikkix

  • 20 years ago

    by Unseen Exposure


    I've been reading a lot of awesome poems lately, but I think this one tops all. Amazing Job. I absolutely loved it.

  • 20 years ago

    by Not Bulletproof

    whoa this is so powerfull..i could feel the emotion, and i do can relate..and so cna many otehr people i met, such an unfortunate thing...but its life..i suppose, well, keep hanign on please, and i dont want u to commit if u were planning, such talent deserves to live on and i know its dim but thinks should get better hunn, i promise yas im here fer u, mail me if u neeed to talk <333 luv u, keep writing and take care please, it'll be allright eventually jsut gotta wait..<33
    -Mortalidaga
    xxxxxx

    ps. this poem was oustanding you have great talent..keep writing <33

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