WANTING TO DIE

by Samantha Mae   Aug 24, 2004


Why do you do this?
And why do i let you?
My emotions are stuck on pissed,
all because of what you do.

I try being nice,
but nothing works.
You end up doing something wrong
And then you get the look.

The look of sadness.
The look of hate.
The look that makes.
Me feel like i want to DIE!

You don't notice,
or try to make me feel better.
So i go home and cry
and wish that i could DIE!

I take my nails
push them deep into my skin.
I don't know why,
but its better than keeping it all in.

Hurting myself is my release.
I don't know why but it works.
It works to take my heartache away
so i can live for another day.

Sometimes, I just want to DIE!
But then i stop to think,
that there are people who love me
and if i died they would cry.

so i sit here in my room,
and think of the things you've said.
Then i make a scratch ,
and watch the blood fall to my bed.

I sit and wonder why?
Why you treat me like this?
Treat me so bad,
that i want to hurt myself.

I don't know why I let you do this. You're just a boy but i love you so.
Even if you make me feel so bad,
that i cry and want to DIE!!!!

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  • 20 years ago

    by Cara

    Hey chicka!!! I really like your poem it was good u are a good writter even tho u dont think u are keep up the good work luv ya lots your best friends
    & Secret box
    c.c

  • 20 years ago

    by Jennifer Fox or Jackson

    Oh My Gosh Sam...This poem was so good...It made me cry so hard...I know what kind of pain you are in because I feel it all the time...I felt it with David but I am so glad that he is out of my life now...I am so glad that he hasnt come back...He hurt me so bad...I still think about him at times...I been through so much with him! Sam I am here for you if you need to talk things through...I hold in my feelings all the time to you know...It kills me inside...Sometimes I feel like no one really cares or even gives me a second though about me cuz they think I aint worth it...I think I need a boast of self-confidence(lol)because I always feel like I am drowning in a pool of darkness! Sam I am so sorry about the hard times I put you through with Ashley...I was so angry with you then...You know she was my best friend and then you came and I felt pushed to the side...It hurt me so bad...I blamed it on you and I should have never...You are a great person...I should have gotten to know you before I judged you...All that wasted time and it was all my fault...I am so sorry Sam...I dont know how you could ever forgive me...I never even forgave myself...You are a very good friend of mine...I just wanted you to know...If you do ever need help with anything I will be there to listen! Well lov ya lots chick...Chow 4 now...Jennie

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