That Positive State of Mind...

I'm searching for a positive state of mind
If only life would be so, so kind
They say when it rains it certainly does pour
I dream of escaping there's nothing I want more…
Hating the world becomes my internal oppression
Falling deeper and deeper into the endless depression
My reality caves in my life is a twisted mess
I'm struggling to stay alive and gasping for my breath…
There is a ray of light, a wind of fresh air
There's the helping hand of a somebody who cares…

I'm in that positive state of mind
The place I have longed for so long to find
Where my sun shines bright without fail each day
I can enjoy my time and I like my life this way…
Learning to love and take each day as it comes
Things turned upside down when I first him, The One
Feeling of intensity to difficult for me to hide
That reassuring feeling of content and comfort inside…
But what goes up will always come crashing down
Once again my future is turned upside down…

I've lost that positive state of mind
If only the hands of time could rewind
I'm falling back down that endless black hole
With a broken heart in pieces and partially burnt soul…
The love of my life slipped between my own two hands
There's not an ear in this world that understands
I'm trapped again, and my personality becomes rigid and mean
Constantly wondering and obsessing what could have been…
I'm back to square one is the conclusion I find
Searching for love, that positive state of mind…

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