Torn

I am confused and frustrated within myself
I am at a loss and in desperate need of help
I love you and you mean the world to me
But I don’t know if I can accept what we have come to be…

Endlessly the situation plagues my mind
And I continuously change the answer I find
The way I feel has changed in a way
But I don’t know how to explain it or what to say…

But the pain hurts and cuts me deep inside
I’m unsure how much longer these feeling can hide
I know I have to share with you the way that I feel
But I’m lost in these feelings, not even sure they are real…

I doubt I could even remotely source the words
Of the way I feel and how much it hurts
If I can honestly be with you I just don’t know
But I could never bare actually letting you go…

You mean so much and I promised to never leave
You’re the blood in my veins and the air that I breathe
We now share a love that grew from an intense lust
Took so much effort to gain one another’s trust…

That love I hold for you will never change
But our situation has drastically rearranged
I felt some of that precious trust be lost
And I realise every love has its hidden costs…

Can I honestly deal with this for the rest of my life?
Along with the secrets that come with that strife
The headaches and baggage and additional tears
Perhaps I’m just too young to begin facing those fears…

I love you and I cannot walk away
Unsure I can cope with a life like that each day
I’m torn as to what it is I should do
Torn over the love I feel so deeply for you…