Eventual suicide

"life can be hard
life can be rough
but you've just gotta deal
even though its tough"
I'm sick of all these people
telling me I'll get through
don't tell me its okay
or I've got a friend in you
you don't really know me
you don't know inside my head
you don't understand
just how many tears I've shed
everyday is just another day
every night is just another excuse to cry
sometimes I'm so lost
i don't even know why
maybe I'm a lost cause
and i should just end it all
take the easy way out
and let my cold dead body fall
or maybe there is still a chance
that i am yet to understand
just why it is that i am here
and on my two feet i will proudly stand
but until that day i cut
deeper and deeper yet
eventually my suicide
a pain no one will forget