The Like Me

Sometimes I think this feeling,
Must be so unreal.
Who could have such sadness,
Feel the way I feel.

I try to look inside,
I try to see the real me.
All that's really there,
Is the sadness swallowing me.

Is there really someone,
Who cries the way I cry.
Crying with all their sadness,
Shoving it inside.

Do you too feel tormented,
Misunderstood and out of place.
Do you too feel invisible,
Gone without a trace.

Does it sometimes feel,
Like no one really gives a damn.
Does it truly feel,
Like no one could understand.

I constantly weigh myself,
Taking online tests.
Often times I feel,
This is me at my best.

I want to be so much more to you,
I try to be what you want.
Depression gets the best of me,
As hard as I have fought.

I just wish you could really care,
Try to really love.
I just wish you cared for me,
Lift my spirits high above.

Could you ever care enough,
To love me the way I am.
I'm sorry I'm not everything,
At least my life isn't one big sham.

I used to only care,
What other people thought.
This is my deep wish,
This is what I sought.

Could I really only find this is my dreams,
Sorry I can't bare this.
I desire so much more than that,
A quiet, loving, self awareness.

Tonight I shall try not to weep,
Suck it even deeper in.
I do not wish to cry tonight,
Provoking evil sin.

I just wish I could find myself,
Enter the inner me.
If you feel the same,
I hope that one day you can see.

See the further happiness,
Buried within thee.

Megan 2004 §