I Have To Ask You

Now i can not see you for such a long while,
i have lost all reason to ever smile.
this time i don not think a facade i can make,
no way i can go in front of people and happiness fake.
i still love you with all my heart and soul and i always will,
i will wait for you forever if i have to even though it is too big of a hill.
but i have to ask you if you feel the same,
will you wait on me, or was it just a game.
i heard that you said, home i would not take you,
yet you had made me promise that, that i would not do.
so do you really love me like you said,
have you cried my tears and wished you were dead.
tears stream down my face a lot now,
and continually my heart bleeds, but i am still living how?
i pray that i don not get in trouble, and neither do you,
but most of all i pray that you still love me too.
Morgan i can tell you that no matter what may be,
i will always love you, please say you also love me.
but please, i beg you my love,
do not lie, tell the truth, dove.
now i guess i just have to wait for your reply,
before i decide whether or not to lay down and die.

this is another one that i wrote after our return from missouri.