Sometimes I wonder if what you said was true. The way you hurt me now I'm not sure I know anymore. The way you used to say I love you and how it meant so much feels meaningless because of what is going on right now. I know I treated you badly but this is to much I have found myself and have decided that if I can't be with you I won't be with anyone. I wish that I could turn back time and change decisions I had to make. I know right now that in my heart you are the one for me. Thats all that matters at least thats what I think. I hope that you can get over the stuff I did to you because no other girl has owned my heart and there won't be a girl who ever will . I wish we still had the relationship that everyone looked at and said I wish I had that kinda relationship but it is evident that you think it's in possible for that to happen again. So now I will sit here feeling that hell has come upon me!!
