Mistake

I really don't know what to think anymore
I used to be so sure of my life
Everything used to be so picture perfect
Now it all seems to be one big long strife

Back then I was the happiest girl alive
I didn't have any problems worth worrying about
Everything felt so perfect to me
But looking backing on the memories, it just makes me doubt

I was in such deep love with him
Everything just felt so perfect and right
I thought he loved me back, but now I'm not so sure
It all ended in one big fight

I thought he'd stand by me throughout everything
But what happened proved he didn't really care
I would give anything to be back in his arms
He knows I'll be there for him whenever

I miss him so much now, he's all I can think about
Every morning I wake up thinking about his face
And every night I go to sleep dreaming of him
I can't handle any more of this so called space

Sometimes I can't help but doubt that you really did love me
Because your actions these past few weeks have made me wonder
I'd give anything to go back in time and change that night
It was one of my biggest blunders

But I'm paying for all that now
I've lost everything
Including the person I loved most
There's nothing that anyone could bring
To me except for the pure happiness that I once felt
The only thing I ask
Is for the suffering to end
So I can take off this death mask
And for everything to go back to the way it was
For me to be able to have the love of my life back
And to be in his arms again
To be finally lifted out of this black

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