Dear Jacob

You meant so much to me,
But i didn't know it.
Now we're both single and free,
And I'm here regretting.

We could have been everything,
If I just would have tried.
But I felt nothing,
and in the end i was tired.

I know I've been cruel,
And I am truly sorry.
Your love was my fuel,
Now I feel so empty.

How should i ever know,
Who you really are?
When I myself can't figure out,
Why i go so far?

But this must be the end,
You seem really happy.
I'd love to be your friend,
Even though We're history.

Before I let you go,
Before It will never be the same.
I want you to know,
I really feel a shamed.

I still love you,
The fault is mine.
But i need to be true,
Even though it's not the right time.

So I'm back to cutting,
And tears are falling from my eyes.
I hoped to feel nothing,
But I'm not surprised.

I would never ask for you back,
Cause I know it wouldn't work.
Even though this Jalousie-attack,
Does really hurt.

I don't want to be your girlfriend,
I just want to hold you tight.
Laugh till day the ends,
and sleep well at night.

Maybe i would kiss you,
once in a while.
But no one need to know,
The thought makes me smile.

So I'll See you later,
You're always in my dreams.
The night is truly better,
Than the day, it seems.