True Love

This is not a poem but something that i wanted everyone to read.

A lot of kids these days ranging from a lot of ages discuss love. They talk to their friends, family, teacher or even people on this website by providing their poems about love. And I know I happen to be one of them. But some of these really are false talking. They discuss love and how they think of love like it’s just something that happens over night and I know this because I was one of them. A lot of these kids talk about love and being love and they have never even experienced it before. But their minds make them think they have not their hearts. When I was younger I use to “date” or be bf/gf with people and I use to think someone just telling me their feelings or laying near me or holding my hand mean they loved me. And I know once in your life a lot of you have thought the same and I know this may be shock to you but what you felt was not love you weren’t in love. Love is more emotional than physical. Love is more spiritual than mental. You don’t just feel love in your mind at all you feel it in the heart. I was with someone for eight months some I held very dear to me. Someone who I called me soul mate. When really I just liked them a lot because you don’t fall in love that fast at first it’s not like that. I think I was with them for about 4 or 5 months until I realized I really loved them and that I cared about them more than anything. But it wasn’t until when I made the biggest mistake of my life when I broke up with them then that I realized I don’t just love this person I was IN love wit them. I knew I had made the wrong move shortly after about a week when I knew there was no way of turning back. I just couldn’t do that turn back after making the worst mistake ever messing up my life and my future as well as theirs. That’s when I knew that I had just ran away from love something I told myself I would never do. That I had actually hurt the first person I was EVER in love with and that was something I also told myself that I would never do. I would go every day knowing I was the one who messed up. But I never wanted to admit it. I didn’t have that much gut’s so I would torment her and blame her for no reason. Even though it was never her fault and I was terrible one who ruined my life not anyone else. Its like I felt so much pain and that I knew I was messed up in the head that I wanted her to feel it to because their was no one else around she was the only one there for me. I think about 2 weeks after that I thought maybe if I just went with someone else then that it would just all go away but I didn’t know that you just cant erase someone that means so much to you our of your life and try to be with someone else. Someone that you have no feelings at all for and they are just there to get your mind off the other person. And love doesn’t work that way. While I was rying to get my mind off my first love it was making it worse just being there with someone else because she was all I thought about. My first love. Finally I decided that it wasn’t working I wasn’t going to get my mind off her. So I just quit with the one I was with because it wasn’t like they meant something to me anyways that’s why it was so easy to let them go. So I finally stated talking to my first love again and I wanted to be with her more than anything and everyday I spent talking to her just gave me the wants more and more. But she told me she wasn’t going to be with me until I earned back they trust that they had for me. I think it was 3 or 4 months until I earned it back until the day I asked them back out. June 16th 2004. June 16th was our old anniversary date. Well we were fine but to make the long story short. Now we aren’t together because of the mistake I made of hurting her she just can’t take it knowing I hurt her. But I can’t take being with anyone else because she is all I want. So when you love someone don’t EVER hurt them. You never know if you will ever get another chance to love them. In our relationship she has broken up with me 6 times because of feeling the pain of our earlier relationship. And if they were to ask me back out I would risk getting my heart broken for the 7th break up just to have one day of their love in my heart. Most of all this story was to tell that when you finally find your true love when you finally fall in love you cant wash it away theirs no way in he11. In life you’re only meant to be with one person now if you end up with that person is a question no one can answer. But I know that no one can have more than one true love. You can’t fall in love more than once. You may have one person that you fell in love with and one that you love. But you can’t say they are two people that are your true loves. Life and love doesn’t work that way