Not so long ago was it that we were together
I remember those days like yesterday
You used to say that you'd never felt this way about a girl before
And that you loved me from the bottom of your heart
I'd honestly never felt this way before
Everything was so perfect, you were so perfect.
You were the light in my otherwise dull life
You made all my troubles just seem to fade away
Every second without you weakened my existence
I missed you like hell
But when I was back in your arms, I was complete again
I know that we shared something truly special
Being with you every day was my only comfort
Having you hold me in your arms and kissing me softly made me the happiest girl alive
I must've been the luckiest to have felt this feeling too
I know the love I felt for you was pure
But then after everything I thought you'd stay by my side
Turns out your love for me wasn't as strong as you'd claimed
I keep thinking over everything we shared
And wonder if what you said was ever true
Your parents told you to dump me
But surely, if your feelings for me were that strong you would've stood by me
I thought we'd be together for longer than that
And I thought I meant more to you than that
It's a shame you never told me yourself
You said you wanted to tell me face to face to save the hurt and pain
But I guess it didn't work out that way
You told them you had no choice and you'd stay with me if you could
Even though I love you with all my heart
I don't know whether to believe you or not
I want to but I don't know if I can
Because you've been lying a lot recently to cover your own ass
I went to the doctor to find out what happened
They say it was attempted rape or something like that anyway
My mind was too confused to take in everything all at once
I refuse to believe it could've been you
Because you said you'd wait until I was ready...
But how can I know what happened between me and you that night if I was out cold
All I have is trust
But that's pretty worthless right now
I guess we'll have to wait until the results come back
Then it'll be down in print
I don't know if I could handle it if it turned out to be you
That's something I might just have to accept
I still find it really hard without you
Even after everything you put me through
I have to admit I hate you for all this
But still I find myself crying over you
You were and still are so amazing
And your face is so beautiful, it's always on my mind
I don't know if I could handle seeing you with another girl
The pain's too much to bear as it is
I'm never allowed to see you again
Both our parents say so
But I'm willing to do anything to be with you
I don't think you feel the same
I guess that hurts the most
Plus the fact that I still love you
