Happy

I want o be happy
I want to be free
I wish i could learn
That the Lord loves me

Pain that hurts inside
Pain that hurts my heart
I'd love to be a normal girl
But life seems way too hard

I want to smile without the guilt
I want to hurt in healthy ways
The Lord loves me cause I'm beautiful
He wants to keep me for always

I wonder what he looks like
When he sees me form his home
Does He cry when he sees
That I'm feeling all alone

Cuts that are scars
Cuts that are deep
I do it for the pain
and cause i need to be redeemed

I wish that it were easier
Just to stay alive
I cry cause i don't understand
Why my friends stay by my side

These friends never leave, and they never will
They stand by my side and expect me to be healed
This lie that I'm living is killing me now
I'd love to be a happy girl, but i don't how...