Nothing but Love!

by Eibutsina   Aug 31, 2004


I look in at those two huge glass doors
Knowing behind lies my fate
I never thought I'd hear such news
Or that i would be so eager to anticipate.
See i think its not knowing
And not having control
That really gets me down inside
And eats up at my soul.
You never think you'll get that call
Or those results to a test
You like to think your fighting fit
And healthy like the rest.
But then the doctor tells you
There's something wrong in the growth of your cells
Your gunna need an operation and possibly chemo
Tears in your eyes begin to well.
At 19 you never planned for this
You thought you had your life in your own hands
There's no one you can confide in
It feels like no one understands.
And then your entire future
Flashes before your very eyes
You wanna give up the fight right now
You don't what the point is to try.
Well i can tell you the point
That helped me fight this fight
The reason i continued to solider on
And why i can get to sleep at night
See i thought of all my loved ones
The ones that i hold so dear
And the unbearable pain it would put them though
If i were to disappear.
And i live with my cancer to this day
And i live with its scars and its pain
I don't know if ill ever have children
Or my confidence will ever be regained
But in all I'm still on top
I'm still here and I still dream
Although its been quite a ride
Its made me stronger than i seem
Because over coming this
Has made my strength bloom and rise
I have so much more faith in god above
I accept my personal faults and the way my life is
And i still gots nothing but love!

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  • 20 years ago

    by Eibutsina

    Yes i have had ovarian cancer detected which prompted me to write this piece,luckily a simple surgery can deal with it since it was caugght in early stages - thanks to everyone for there support i just hope this poem could maybe help someone going thru tha same thing - not everyone is as lucky to have a simple procedure fix up there problems MUCH LUV TO YALL
    Eirisa xoxo

  • 20 years ago

    by Semaran

    You really are an extremely talented writer erisa. That was superb i loved the flow of your words as ever. Also although i have never had cancer myself, i lost my first friend to it at the age of 12. someone very special to me has had their father recently diagnosed aswell. Thankyou for your hope and inspiration.. as with all your tales of woe i pray that it isnt too but either way your inspiration and beauty makes us all stronger.

  • 20 years ago

    by FireCracker

    OMG, I loved this poem gurl , it was awesome, ill email ya back soon ~
    lylas

  • 20 years ago

    by Chelsey

    What!? Please tell me this isnt true!! I'm in so much shock!! You know I hear so many people here in ohio tell me their problems and i love to listen and help then in anyway i can ..But honostly You seem like your haveing such a ruff time!! I got nothing but LOVE for YOU and I do pray everynight..and when I think I'm done praying...You pop in my head and i just say a special prayer for you...i wrote a poem about what i pray too..;)
    I just want you to know whenever you feel done or depressed or anything..I want you to know I'm by your side ever step of the way! This poem made me feel something..I don't even know what but it really touched me...I hope everything gets better and my prayers won't ever end for you...I love you tons girl..You deserve way higher then a five,.,,, Ya baby sis, ~Chelsey

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