Overwhelmed

How to express my heart in words
Creeping emotions and fluctuating sentimentality gets the best of me
My wandering mind stirs up a heavy pulse in my chest
As if each thought influences the next beat
My body, sustained only by the hopes and what ifs that cloud my mind
How irrational, yet so obvious
My doubts don’t stand a chance
They are enveloped by the overwhelming flood of each beat, each thought
Endless nights of neurons and synapses obsessing over the day’s minutia
Each glance recalled with immense detail
Moments of eye contact never to be lost in the recesses of reflection
Each touch absorbed by the skin into the flow of consciousness
How much longer can I withstand this self-torment?