Dear diary

by Jessica   Sep 1, 2004


Dear diary,
I'm lying here on my bed
Thinking should I
Take 10 more

I don't know
What's been going through
My head lately
But I know it's not good

I made some bad choices as you know
Don't know how to change what went wrong
I tried to turn myself around
but all I want to do is take some more

It eases my pain
For a little
But it comes back 100 times worse

You think I'll learn by now
By being down this road

I cant even call up my friends
cause I'm so ashamed of myself
Nobody will understands
what it's like to be me

I just want to disappear
cause I can't fit in

I hide my pain like the rest of them
I'm troubled,
I'm brilliant and miserable too

Surrounded by
familiar faces without names
None of them know me
Or want to share my pain
they just want to watch me
Live my life in pain

So what good am I
to you if you don't care

Looking for the right track
Always on the wrong track

As time goes by I take some more
Then I realize this is not what I want to be
I don't want to go thought this again

Its time for me to not be troubled

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  • 19 years ago

    by Seule

    Hey. I know your pain. I never really realized that I had a problem with taking pills, until one day they were all gone. I would drink, and take pills, it was my way of coping with everything and nothing. That day I hurt so bad, but I couldn't take any pills... so i decided to quit. I stopped then and there. I haven't taken pills for that reason for 6 months, and have found other ways(deep breathing, and accepting what is going on around me..etc) to cope.

    I enjoyed your poem.

  • 20 years ago

    by *Elizabeth*

    WOW, I LOVED this poem!! so great!!
    I can soo totally relate!!
    great job girl! keep it up!

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