Its an event I took for granted for sure,
Not knowing what it would be like to coddle one so small.
But my love for him is what made me agree.
Now others see the joy I see thats pure.
Wishing I could get that love and not feeling it at all.
A new mother I'm not meant to be.
He made the choice long before my time.
He's got children already, and that surely is enough.
Or so he thought way back when.
Now what I wouldn't give for that turn to be mine.
Getting to be a mommy, I wouldn't care if its rough!
Hearing a coo or cry, who cares if its half past ten?
So I'll keep holding onto the dreams I create.
As for now, no BABY shall I carry.
No labor that I yern for, no I'm not crazy.
No BABY shall we together make.
The choice was not mine, until the day we did marry.
Then I realized I do want us to have a BABY.
-My hubby had a vasectomy a year before we dated, and so now, I have that damn internal instinct that says I WANT, NEED a baby...and for now, its not meant to be. But we have his kids from his previous marriage...just isn't the same somehow...
