God Open Up The Gate

Look where I'm at now, still at the bottom.
I feel like 2Pac when that bastard shot him.
I couldn't have any lower self esteem.
No girl even wants to have the last name Greene.
So what should I do, try to succeed?
With girls, my career, or focus on greed?
Man I don't know, life's got me down.
Growing accustomed to the crying sound.
Trampled love, heart nonexistent.
Girl for me, just an imaginative figment.
Have my dreams and that's all I got.
Open up the gate God, Heaven's sought.
Man I'm done trying to deal with this,
So goodbye to the one no one will miss.
Turn the lights off, abandoned body.
To live or die by the 12 gauge shotty.
A living lie is what you could call me.
Cool outside but inside I ain't free.
Trapped up, waiting to be released.
Kinda weird being the living deceased.
But what can I say, in that way I'm special.
Still being alive while I'm in Hell's threshold.
So what can I do but lay back while I wait,
For the day that God opens up the gate.

Where did I go wrong, lose my way?
Why should I live another dying day?
Ain't done no bad to deserve what I got.
I never even drank alcohol or did pot.
But all is done and now I don't even care.
That's just life man and it ain't fair.
Just go along with everything I've been given,
Ain't gonna take to make work while I'm livin'.
Man I want but I can never get.
All I do ends up in regret.
My future holds absolutely nothing.
So why was I told that I would become something.
An astronaut, or maybe a doctor.
An NBA player or a hardcore rocker.
But now I see my true destiny.
Lost all faith and the blessing in me.
Making an effort to maintain.
"Downhill Life" is the name of the game.
But with every spin of the wheel,
Comes another death or another empty meal.
And man I feel like I just can't win.
Living my life is a natural sin.
I'm gonna lose no matter what I do.
Honesty suddenly ain't being true.

God's creation with flawed activity.
I'm coming back for touch up, open up the gate for me.