I chanted your name on my last breath

I sit in my room trying to stop crying,
I hate my life and all the fighting,
my life is bad and all the strife,
it hits me hard right inside,

I drop down on my knees,
and try to yell oh how I plea,
for death to spring upon me in many different ways,
if I were to be hit by a bus then let that stay,

but I don't want to leave knowing what I've left behind,
all my friends haunt me my fears and my mind,
I know they care but no one seems to help,
they cant even notice every feeling I've felt,

cause no one understands how I feel in side,
people will never believe what they don't see beyond their 2 eyes,
I'm sick of always be blamed for everything that happens,
its not my fault I want to live with my world as captions,

not knowing what they say will help me stay,
but knowing that someone hates me I have to escape,
so knowing as my fears grow strong I cant hold back,
no one can stop me now, no I wont relax,

I run up with a rope and tie it to the bar,
never thinking of what I'm about to do never thinking I've gone to far,
I jump off in the front of my school,
now she will see how she was so cruel,

I wont forgive and not forget,
I will not remember the day we first met,
because you broke me in half,
and made my last bit of scars,

you are the cause of the red marks on my hand,
I was the one that gave the chance,
you are the one that is dead,
you're the one who made me pull myself to shreds,

and you are the one who caused the red marks on my neck,
your name is what I chanted on my last breath,