Final Goodbye

Up in my room
scared as can be
yet no one understands
how much fear is inside of me

she comes home late
pissed off from work
she can be the best mom
but in seconds flat can turn into the biggest jerk

she over looks what i have cleaned perfectly
and only notices what i have not done
picks up the belt
thats when i know i gotta run

head for my room
locking the door behind me
as i can hear her come
fear over takes my body and i suddenly cannot see

she breaks down the door
like its not that big of a deal
after tonight this will take
more time to heal

she starts screaming at me
telling me how i was a mistake
all those times you told me you loved me
was so incredibly fake

after you are done beating me you realize what you have done
you cannot handle the decision you have just made
so now it is your time to run

you leave me here
in my room broken and bruised
as tears start to run down my cheek
for help i cannot seek

later that night you return home
and come up to check on me
when you stop in the doorway
and realize what you see

a scared little girl
surrounded in a puddle of blood
you see a letter in her hand
and suddenly you cannot stand

you take the letter from her hand and sit down on the bed
you cannot understand why your child has commited suicide
and is not dead-this is how the letter read

"i could not take this life anymore
it was just to hard and cruel
mom how could you be so hurtful
and be such a fool?

i guess you did not realize what you did to me
but i hope by me doing this
will open your eyes
and make you see

tell my friends im sorry
and that i love them so
it did not help having
my self-estem so low

i was so sick and tired of being used
and everything i was told being a lie
i am not sorry for doing this but i am sorry for how it will affect my friends
for this is my final goodbye."