My Love...In Gods Hands

Dear God hear me out because i only have one thing to say.
Its about that guy again the one I love and cherish each and everyday.
Yeah you know the one I'm talking about, the one i fell in love with three years ago yeah its still the same.That every time you look down on me I'm smiling, because someone said his name.
Why did you have to make me this way?Why did you let me build up all these feelings i cannot make go away.
Please don't ask me, i think you already know why, because every time i think of it, it just makes me cry.
You knew how much i loved him and that everyday he was on my mind.And I'm sure you remember when i told you he would be the soul mate i would find.
And just like that you pretended you didn't hear me and u gave him to another chick, when i think that you did that to me god, it just makes me sick.
I guess you cant make him like me it has to be from the heart.But why cant his heat see that mine is falling apart.
Maybe he does see it and doesn't really care.Maybe he thinks i should deal with it and life is just not that fair.
You would think that being his friend would be good enough for me.Trust me i wish that it could be.I cant help it that my heart wants more.Its like the inside of heart is getting colder like an open door.
So thank you god for hearing the one think i had to say and hopefully you will guide me to my soul mate....someday.