It seems like lately all I can do
Is sit here, alone, and think about you
I’m not sure why I’m so obsessed
But I can’t get you off my mind, I confess
We didn’t have time to see where this would go
You turned away before we could know
I’m still so confused about the how and the why
You just turned your back and didn’t give us a try
It all started out as just a little crush
But then everything started meaning too much
You made me happy, gave me butterflies
You put that twinkle back in my eyes
It had been so long since I felt that way
But now I had you to lean on everyday
That part was scary; it was all so new
The worst part was: I was falling for you
You told me sweet things and made me believe
That love was out there within my reach
Still, to this day, I look back on what you said
And do not believe you were messing with my head
You didn’t make it all up; I refuse to think that
There’s no way you could have pulled off that act
I don’t know what happened, did I push you away?
Or were you just too scared to stay?
I don’t love you; I wasn’t given the choice
But at night, in my bed, I still hear your voice
You treated me right and helped me to see
That there were men besides Joel out there for me
When we decided that it should end
I never thought we would not be friends
I hate the way you walk past me
And turn your head so you can’t see
Hopefully one day you will look at me again
And maybe we can go back to being friends
Dedicated to Jeremy, who helped me get over my first love. Even though things are bad between us right now, he made me really happy. He was there for me when I needed to talk, and I appreciate that. He wasn’t the one for me, but he helped me realize that there are people out there who will respect me for who I am.
