Must pretend

I will pretend that my marriage of five years didn't end in divorce
Yes but it did take that course
OK I will pretend that the woman I feel in love with a year after my divorce was final
Is still with me and we are soul-mates like we said
But no,a year ago she walked out of my life
And now I hear shes another mans wife
There's three years gone
I know,I will pretend that my last girlfriend,who just gave birth to our son
Didn't really move out of state to California,to be with another man
But she did
Oh I will pretend that it all makes sense and I understand
That the only child I have will now be raised around another man
But the wounds are so deep
How about I just pretend that I'm not confused
That my heart can truly mend
I think for me to carry on I just must pretend