I'm crying now, and with the tears in my eyes
I feel so hurt, and I don't know why
Behind all the smiles, I've hidden it all
I wasn't expecting the trip, much less the fall
Yet here I am, broken, and hurting too much
From my spot on the floor I cannot get up
I can't wipe away these tears, they won't go away
I feel so lost and hopeless today.
In the kitchen lies a knife that tempts me near
My heart pounds loudly with an indescribable fear
A few steps away is the key to my death
The temptation gets stronger with every short breath
An sharp stab of pain when I think of the loss
And I know I can't do it, no matter the cost
But I can't rid the temptation, it won't go away
I feel so lost and hopeless today.
Holding tight to my sanity, I lay on the floor
I'm slipping away, behind the walls that I tore
I'm losing it slowly, I can't seem to stay still
There is no more faith, I've lost all my will
Confused and uncertain, and hurting so much
Retreating from contact and all human touch
I can't hold on to reality, it's falling away
I feel so lost and hopeless today.
I try to make it all stop happening, because I don't know
Why it all came now, and why I can't let it all go
I was doing so well, it was hidden so far inside
People had forgotten my hurt, like the tears I had cried
It was all washed away, but the tide brought it all back
I feel all tensed up, and I just can't relax
There's a knife in the kitchen, only a few steps away...
I feel so lost and hopeless today.
I felt it before, but today it's so strong
I was doing so good, I don't know what went wrong
But it hit me hard, and I can't pull myself together
I know I can't deal with this pain forever
Slowly, I sit up and reach for the phone
I know I'll never get through this alone
No one answers on the other line, so I push it all away
I'm lost, hopeless, and forgotten today.
