Ruined it all

So many tears I've cried
it don't get any better
and when I see your face
the pain seems like forever

and when you say your sorry
it just makes things worse
when i see you smiling
the pain just really hurts

I'm so tired of pretending
cause i know I'm not okay
but my happiness is a
practised act I do it everyday

so many times I've heard your voice
in my head saying I love you'
it doesn't make sense
I don't think it's true

you cheated on me
on accident you say
how does that happen
there is just no way

we were so perfect
we had it all planned
I knew you loved me
cause of who I am

I don't believe you
I loved you so much
secretly I think
that for you I ain't enough

and late at night
I cry myself to sleep
remembering how
we would meet

i love you so much
I guess it'll stay in my heart
but you ruined everything
so we'll always be apart.