Pain Inside

I said everything would be fine.
I ignored that feeling in my spine.
I said I'd be OK.
What a terrific F'in day.
Although my thoughts were astray.
It didn't sink in what you did say.
The thoughts then hit me without description.
My feelings only with inhibition.
They came out in a form of weakness.
My heart was full of deadness.
I was awake but still asleep.
I had turned into one sorry heap.
I felt underneath my shirt.
Right to the part where it hurt.
I noticed that part of it was with you.
Relationships for now I am through.
I need time.
Time to heal.
Time to learn to feel.
Time again alone.
Cause once again the demon of heartache has shown.