Lost Life

So close, over the edge,
Can't get this thought,
Out of my head,
Tears falling down my face,
Wanting to do the worst,
Wanting to embrace,

Silver and shiny,
In the kitchen drawer,
Wanting the blood,
And so much more,
Running across my lifeless veins,
Killing myself without any pain,

No regrets, or looking back,
No future or smiles,
I don't need to act,
No worries are needed,
Becoming depressed, depleted,
I've made up my mind,

Just one puff, Maybe one hit,
Smoke away the pain,
Can't run away from this shit,
Can't smile, letting myself down,
Running my blood on the ground,

Throughout all this pain,
You made me insane,
Wondering how I would live,
If you ever left me,
No good has come of this,
But tears, screams, and cries,
Why deny you knew you had Control, of you and I.