Goodbye!!!!!

I've built a wall up around myself.
Living with only a pulse.
The pain inside.
Is too much to hide.
I lay my pain onto my skin.
I don't know where to begin.
It lives way down deep inside.
I have nowhere to run and hide.
To get away would be too hard.
But all this pain has made me stiff as a board.
I cannot move, I cannot sleep.
All I do is weep and weep.
I crawl slowly up a hill too steep.
On my skin is where I keep.
All my cuts and all my scars.
One day I will go to far.
One day I will bleed till I die.
There is no one that will cry.
No one will miss me and no one will care.
Just the simple fact that I'm not there.
That I'm not alive to keep you happy.
What else can I do when I feel crappy.
I'm not here to be your clown.
So now I will slowly drown.
In all the tears I slowly cry.
While I lay on the floor and die.
My wrists are bleeding and I'm feeling weak.
I hope you find what it is you seek.