SUpPosed

Everything that supposed to be right
has gone oh so very wrong
the days I'm supposed to enjoy
seem to be much too long
my heart thats supposed to be whole
its in pieces i still cant find
the sleep supposed to be restful, isn't
cant seem to tame my racing mind
my happiness supposed to be in plenty
is nowhere to be found
this great love I'm supposed to meet
seems he's just not around
the smile I'm supposed to wear
has been washed away by tears
the hopes I'm supposed to have
have been replaced by all my fears
the joy in my life
and the love within my heart
where has my whole world gone?
i feel so torn apart
the sun seems not a blessing
the sky seems not so blue
i pray to god this is only temporary
cuz I've forever lost you
with you you took what i stood for
and all of who i was
i need to be a whole again
i need so much and more because
holding myself is useless
bad days seems there's no end
i cant fake my smiles anymore
i can no longer pretend
i want to wake up every morning
and see the world in different eyes
i want to smile and laugh more..
put an end to all those cries
i want to be a person
knowing there's no one by my side
i want to feel as if I'm living
no longer like I've died
i wanna feel the warmth on my skin
from the suns beautiful rays
i just want to be happy..thas all..
just want those better days..