Love and Longing

I know you want to feel my embrace once more.
I know your heart is hollow since I left you.
Now I'm here back with you,
And you can not touch me.
Your eyes drift away from me.
In bed we lay so silently,
and you roll over as if I wasn't
even there.
You walk around the house
Never speaking to me.
I try to talk to you,
and all you say is why Olivia.
You go about your day, driving me mad.
I can't take the silent treatment anymore!
My days have become so cold without you.
I don't even leave the house,
I don't see my family.
My world revolves around your touch.
The touch you never give me.
I know I have wronged you before.
I know I let my body stray.
I know I let my feelings get consumed by another mans touch.
But I promised you I would never
indulge myself again in another mans embrace.
But this was years ago,
what have I now done?
My mind tries to unravel yet
another sin that I may have burdened him with.
But my mind blank with emptiness.
When he returns home it's as if
his night will repeat over and over again.
He never eats the food I cook for him,
Instead overlooks it as if it was never there.
Making himself something else,
Our eyes meet and we stand there
his eyes have a glimmer of love in them.
Is now going to talk to me?
The phone rings,
He grabs it before I can get to it.
He speaks on the phone,
Laughs, Laughs I haven't heard
in so long.
He sits down on the chair,
taping his finger on his knee.
Who ever hes talking to, he doesn't
mind talking so lovingly with me standing right here.
Is he getting revenge on me?
Is my Karma about to come full circle?
I run upstairs weeping.
Throwing myself on the bed.
How can he do this to me?
He must not love me at all,
he must have kept all the rage
building up inside of him.
Damn him for lying to me.
He comes upstairs,
I sit up,
John, who is she?
John, why are you doing this to me?
He sits down next to me,
Throwing himself back on the bed.
A smile from ear to ear.
Olivia, I met a women.
Its our first date tonight.
Oh my god John its true.
I knew it.
Olivia, Please forgive me.
But I had to move on.
Ever since you committed suicided I've been alone
and angry.
But its like you set me a women,
its like you knew how lost I was.
Thank you Olivia,
Thank you for always being my best friend.