Goodbye Dad

So last time I wrote about you
I said it would mark the end
But now I realize the truth
My heart needed to fully mend

I had to except that you were gone
I would never again have a dad
And now that I have learnt to be ok
I am no longer hurt and sad

To be honest we were just strangers
I never got to know you that well
Since you left you never had the time
You did not get past my outer shell

Nothing I could do was ever enough
You just didn’t want to know
Every time that I tried to make it work
I suffered another heavy blow

Rejection is always so hard to deal with
Especially when you are only six
The long term damage that you have
Caused me is way too much to fix

To be honest I do not hate you
I pity you from the bottom of my heart
Because every one who has loved you
You have always managed to pull apart

All I wanted was acceptance from you
It has taken me thirteen long years
To realize I do not need you anymore
And to cry out all of my unused tears

You will not be invited to my wedding
As you have not earned your place
I never want to lay eyes on you again
Only in photos you will see my face

Once upon a time you had four kids
But now you are only a father of three
For I am locking you out of my life
And I am throwing away the key