Things had gotten so much better
i was finally back on track
but then you had to leave
and now all the pain is back
you held me up
you kept me strong
you made things right
when all went wrong
i cant even tell you how much i miss
your sweet smiling face
deep in my heart there is a void
that only you can replace
I'm sorry i never told you
what all the pain had caused
I'm sorry i never told you
how much i really hated god
you stopped me from killing myself once
but where the hell are you now?
I'm sorry... i know its not your fault and that your not very proud
for as long as i can remember i have lived walking through a gauntlet of pain and sorrow
wishing for my life to end and to have no more tomorrows
my arms ache for your embrace
and only for you to hold
I'm sorry for the things i never did
and for the things i never told
i don't think i would be able to
forgive her
even years down the road because
even now when i see her my eyes burn with fire so hot they form icy stares of cold
now i dream for the day when my heart stops beating
when the grip pain has on me starts releasing
i cant keep resting in these bloody arms of hate
i have to get away and live out my own fate
i wish you were here so i could say good-bye
when you read this letter please don't cry
in my head i hear my own voice screaming
i look down and see my wrist bleeding
now the end is finally starting
my last smile is here in my sweet soft departing
