Did you ever care?

Why is it the more I think of you the more I want to cry?
Why did he say everything you told me was a lie?
You said that you loved me and that you’ll always care,
But the pain of knowing you might have lied I can’t bare.
I had the guilt of lying,
It would make me break down and start crying.
I did things that would cause you to go,
But after you left you still didn’t know.
What you saw you claimed was bad.
Why don’t you believe me when I tell you that he was my step dad?
You thought I was with another guy,
and that’s where I kept the lie.
I told you the truth after you let me go,
I told you about the guy Josh, who came to my house a few weeks ago.
I told you I didn’t care that we were no longer we,
And we both agreed that’s the way its supposed to be.
I start to wonder how my life would be if you never there,
Would I find someone like you to be with and that I know would care?
I remember when I first met you, I knew I was yours right from the start,
Why didn’t I believe people when they said you would eventually break my heart?
When I close my eyes, I see your face and your beautiful eyes,
You eyes as blue as the sky.
I think of the days you would wrap your arms around me,
and lightly kiss my lips, in front of everyone to see.
I must know,
Before I try to let my heart and mind let you go,
My feelings and love are there,
Honestly did you ever care?