I'm in my bedroom crying out my fears
Its been years since I showed my other side
The one that smiles so bright
I don't think I can look into your eyes and know every things alright
I doubt all that you say
You can't change me any way
I wake up put on that fake smile and walk out the door
I will not smile for real anymore
There's no reason to
I don't feel like that
In my dictionary there's no such thing as happiness
Its hidden somewhere no one will ever know
Somewhere you can't even show
Yes this is me unhappy as can be
Yes this is me I'm crying behind these lovely brown eyes
Yes this is me you can't really see
Yes this is me no happiness here
Do you want to play ask someone else
I'm not that kind of person who'll dress up as an elf
I don't really care if you don't like me
Stop making a fool of yourself
This is me unhappy as can be
There's no excitement in my head
Just some things that I have read
You don't wanna know what they are
So I'll go away very far
I wanna lose everything thing I never use
Like this smile that actually weeps behind the curtains
Behind the door you don't know me
There's another reason why you can't see the girl I wanna be
Shut your eyes and imagine me
That happy girl was who I used to be
Things change and thats the way it goes
Feelings hide and my happiness won't show
