Never Notice Me

I walk through the halls
And see you everyday
I smile really big
Hoping you will look my way

Next day,
I have a plan
To make me really pretty
So that you will be my man

Today,
I saw you glance at me
Maybe you're starting to like me,
I think excitedly.

I think about you all the time,
And so many days have passed.
I try to focus on my grades,
But I want the thought of you to last.

How come you never talk
Or even take another look at me?
Did I make you mad?
I'm sorry. Please forgive me.

I can't get over what I saw.
Now I'm in so much pain
I slit my wrist,
Oops, I think I cut a vein.

You came towards me smiling
That moment keeps playing in my mind.
I was so happy and giggling inside
Until it wasn?t me you wanted to find.

You walked right passed me
Into some other girl's arms
I watched you kiss her
And hold her to protect her from harm.

My cries begin to echo.
I stare at my crimson blood,
Wanting to escape,
Wanting to run.

Maybe I wasn?t
Pretty enough for you.
But I wanted to be
The one you ran to.

You broke my heart
Here it lays in two it cracked
I loved you
And that was a fact.

But as I cry myself to sleep,
I know tomorrow when I'm not there
You will still never notice me
Or even care.