I touch you so softly, as though I’m scared you’ll turn away
It’s feels so weird for me to sit next to you as I am today
I’d normally lie in your arms, and know you want me there
But today, I sit beside you, completely sure you’re unaware
Of how I feel so different, and how I’m doubting all this now
It seems to me that I’m starting to believe the lies somehow
When I look into your eyes, it’s feels like unfamiliar territory
Where you’ve kept all your secrets, safely hidden far from me
But slowly they all slip out, and with each one I seem to find
That this happiness I thought we had was only a state of mind
Every time I’m near you, I know that something has changed
And even though I wish it were, I know it’ll never be the same
Each day you fall further away, because I chose to let you go
But it’s not as easy for me…but the thing is, you’ll never know
You’ll never know you’re disappearing a little more each day
And you’ll never know how much it hurts for me to have to say
That I’m losing you, and we’ve lost us, and this is probably it
And the fact that it’s likely my fault is hard for me to admit
I look longingly at the arms that always held me until today
I touch you softly, hurting, and wait for you to turn away.
