Cutting your name

You say that i do this because I'm depressed
but i know when i do this i feel my best
i know that you think it is bad
but you don't understand that I'm not mad
i simply don't understand how i will survive this life
if i have all this strife
you see cutting is like a signal
a signal to destroy
it plays with my mind
as if it were a toy
my wrist is stained red
and all those lies this is what it led
i know you don't care
and that i cant bare
so i will continue to write your name in my skin
with each letter i dig the razor in
the blood spills out
and its like i have no more doubt
you name etched in there forever
and i will always have this tattoo to remember when i thought i hated the word never
now i will always remember you
and how you said ill never love you