Not Good Enough

That's it.
I've had enough,
Might as well not even try anymore,
I give up.

I've tried so hard to be the person you want me to be,
To stand infront of you as what you dream to see.
All I want is to see pride in your eyes,
And instead all I see is disappointment and despise.

I don't get it.
In my younger years you were always there,
To comfort me and dry my tears.
You always told me, "Don't try and change yourself, Do the right thing. You know I'll always love you, no matter what life brings."
But now, everything I do and everything I say,
Is never enough for you,
I wish you wouldn't make me feel this way.

Insignificant and unimportant,
You make me feel so small,
It makes me wonder why I even try at all.
I'll never be able to live up to your standards or your expectations,
I'll never be "Daddy's Number One Girl",
Guess I'll just have to face the facts,
You don't want me in your world.

Sometimes I look at you,
And I think,
Are you proud of me, and do you love me? Or am I just another mistake?
An imperfect version,
You wish you could recreate.

I just wish that things could be like before,
When I was the little girl you used to adore.
I may not be little anymore,
But your love and approval still matters just as much to me,
Maybe even more then it did before.

The bond we shared seems to have partly collapsed,
I know I'm never gonna be able to win your love back.
And instead, I'll leave you with these three words.
I give up.
I'm just not good enough.

**Just a little piece of info for you guys, this was written for my dad.**