I hold your hands, and look at you
Your expression is different for a moment
I’ve never seen you look so distant before.
I ask you what’s wrong, but its like you don’t even hear me
And soon the moment is gone.
You smile at me again, like you think you’re fooling me
"I’m fine," you say.
I don’t believe you.
Sometimes, I wish I could read your mind
And hear what you’re not saying, know what you’re not telling me.
Lately, your eyes have had that glazed over look
Like you’re dreaming, and just don’t have the strength to wake up.
I hold your hands, and look at you
I ask you to promise me you won’t lie
You agree.
But your answer remains the same
Yet your eyes are cold and unforgiving.
I can’t help but think I’ve done something wrong
Messed something up, said something I shouldn’t have.
You aren’t telling me the truth, I know you aren’t
But I can’t do anything about it.
I hold your hands, and look at you
This time, you’re asking me what’s wrong
I try so hard to tell you before I start to cry
But I’m too late.
You try to wipe away my tears, but I back away
"I can’t do this anymore." Is all I say to you
Before turning and walking in the other direction
Away from the dishonest person I love so much.
Everyday now, I reach out to hold your hands
And I look for you...but you aren’t there.
When people ask me if I’m OK, I reply with "I’m fine."
And it’s tearing me apart
Just like it tore us apart.
And I’m left with the harsh truth
Of how everything is just fine.
