Grateful tears I have not shed
Wonderful dreams that I do not share
I hold them back
In my head
Hoping nobody sees the dreadful things I carry
It’s sad to say
That I put myself last
While I put my friends first
I put up with your fights and I blame them on me
Never have I open my mind up in front of you
The aches I carry they seem like happiness
The scars I have I blame them on my cat
But little did you know that was a lie
I’ve tried to kill myself
I wont lie about that
The dreams I did hold
They washed away
They’re deep in the sea
My heart it hurts
I ache for someone to love me
Instead walking all over me
It seems impossible a promise to make
The drugs I’ve been on
Haven’t washed away
My blood runs with the worlds
‘Please let it be over with’
The drugs I take
They just get me high
Everything I take
Doesn’t get rid of this pain
Words I say
They never excited
My body is weak
My eyes are filled with sorrow and tiredness
I haven’t eat in four days
Everything goes numb
As I hit the cold floor
Tears well up in my eyes
My true dream for this year
Was death and here it is
Right before my eyes
Out of this miserable life
