I've fallen back

I'm fallen back,
Into the darkness,
The razor blade on my wrist,
I can feel the sharpness

My heart,
Is a black hole,
All I want,
Is to feel whole

Crying myself to sleep,
By myself; alone
Need to talk to you;hear your voice,
But you wont pick up your phone

Depression,
Is taking over my life,
I'm sick of it,
Just want to finish it all with this knife

I have no freedom,
I get watched whatever I do,
Wish I could just live my life,
Just me and you

I've locked myself away from the world,
Threw away the key,
Can't get it back,
All alone;Just me

Sleep my days away,
And cry all through the night,
I'm sick of all this sh*t
I give up the fight

I know I should try make everything better,
I wanna get out of this hell now,
I wanna tell you I love you,
But I don't know how