Number 8

I once wished upon a star
Now those dreams so tattered and far
A cold numbness fills my soul
Covered up by a gentle smile, whose pain takes its tole
The streams never stop running from my eyes
You're oblivious, deaf to my cries
I know you love me, so is this some silly little game
Because in the end I'm going to end up shattered and lame
Now other people are starting to ask
Why my heart is set on such an impossible task
I know I'm nothing, it wouldn't matter if i was dead or alive
But its you that keeps me going, makes my existence thrive
I try to be the way you want me to be
But thats never good enough, you're always wanting more from me
I'm so confused on what I should do
I've thought of many things, but narrowed it down to two
I could tell you to leave and then my soul heart and happiness would die
Or I could be with you and sit here and cry
But until I reach my decision there's only a couple things I can do
I have to make sure my emotions never get through to you
Because I'm wrong, I'm always so wrong
I wish that these tears would go away, the ones I've cried for so long
I want to be exactly what you want to see
There's only one thing that will always help me
My razor, slashing through the pain
Sending sunlight down through eternal rain
I love you, and that's my curse
If I didn't love you then all my tears would disperse
But yet your the only reason I haven't ended it all
Your the reason when that razor wanders to my wrist I start to stall
So I guess whatever I do I'll be left in this rain
Cutting and cutting, drowning away the pain