Back To You

I hate this...
All the pain I go through on your behalf.
All the tears I cry, all the hurt I feel
All the angry words I shout.
All the could have been’s
And the should have been’s
Will never be, now.
All the fear I have, all my insecurities
I bring back to you.

I hate this...
Everything you say
Every lie you tell and expect me to believe.
Every false feeling you show
Every demand
And confrontation
That I can’t avoid.
Every night that I cry myself to sleep
I bring back to you.

I hate this...
The way I can’t escape this.
The way I’m stuck in this hell
The way you control me.
The way I’m so insignificant
And so unworthy of love
In your eyes.
The way I live in denial
I bring back to you.

I hate this...
All the pain you put me through
Every lie that you tell me
The way you control me
I hate it all.
And I can’t escape
Because this is my home.
This is my life, that I live in fear, mom...
And I bring it back to you.