Exposed

Hiding the tears behind my smiles,
Putting away the pain in safe kept files,
Writing of hope, then leaving it behind,
Trying to find a home, a place in my mind,
Lost in discomfort, and fearing the end,
Knowing loss is just around the bend,
Holding on tight, praying for change,
Perhaps these pieces could rearrange,
But who's left to fool when even I don't believe?
I can't go for a heart that can't be retrieved,
Drinking and cutting, crashing and burning,
Wishing for something, something worth earning,
Going after love is such a waste of time,
Searching for something thats too hard to find,
I'm letting go, this chapter is closed,
I'm feeling better now that it's all been exposed.