I Still Miss You

You let go of my heart
When you released my hand
My heart dropped down
Like water and sand

I felt your presence
Inside my bare soul
But it wasn't the same
My heart was like coal

My emotions were dry
Like undying paralysis
And my thoughts were barren
Yet you were still blameless

I thought I did this
That I was to blame
Because I couldn't keep up
Keep up in this game

Yet you were still there
With me in thoughts
But still untouchable
It was never your fault

It was never your fault
That's what I taught myself to say
But that wasn't the case
That idea wasn't okay

It sat uneasily
In my head and mind
My thoughts weren't secure
Something wasn't aligned

In the end I realized
It wasn't my fault
You were to blame
I lost by default

You had taken my heart
And cut it in two
Without mending the pieces
There was nothing to glue

I had let you get away
With my insides dying
While you were on top of the world
While you were flying

But now it's over
Like I predicted to be true
There's still one thing wrong
I still miss you