Free Of My Addiction

I think I have finally
Gotten over my addiction
The addiction that wants me
To go back to cutting
Every time I felt angry
I would reach for the knife
Just to release what I was feeling
Just so I could see the blood
And just so I would feel in control
Sometimes I would run the blade
Over my wrists just to feel it
Pierce against my skin
To me it was one thing that
I could control
I never thought that it would
Become my addiction
I never thought I couldn't control it
Until that day I tried to slash harder
I wanted to die, I hated the world
After a long struggle I am now free
I am free of what I use to be
A girl who just wanted help
A girl who use to cut her wrists
A girl who hated life and wanted it to end
I am now a girl who is free from her addiction