Don't Know What to Expect

Laying in bed for hours
wondering about my future
will my friends always be my friends?
will they get tired of me and leave my side?
Who can i always trust,
maybe the only person
I can trust is myself.
What am i going to be when i grow up?
will i always worry about meeting
my parents expectations
or will i someday be able to live my own life?
When will my dad love me
enough to be there?
When will i be happy and free?