Cara May Rockwell

Cara May Rockwell,

You were the light in eyes
but now the lights gone
you left me in the dark
which feels so very wrong.

It feels so awkward
not talking to you
I wish you didn't hate my guts
because I miss hanging out with you.

I wish you would try to forgive me
and give me a second try
because I promise to be better at being there
and I promise you I'll never lie.

I didn't understand at first
but its finally all sunk in
it makes me feel empty inside
knowing I acted the way I've been.

I don't ever want to hurt you
because you mean so much to me
I am so sorry if I did
because your pain was more then I could see.

I tired so many times to talk to you
but I'm scared at what you might say or do
I am worried that I will forever wish I was there
because I love you and I really do care.

So many times I told you this
but so many times you told me it wasn't true
I will tell you a million times more that I really care
because I really do care and I want to be there for you.

Please don't hate me
because that is what hurts more
because it makes me feel worthless
and makes my heart drop to the floor.

I am sorry for all the things I said
I didn't mean half of anything I wrote that you read
I don't want to lose you this way anyhow
because without you I don't know what to do now.

Please shine your light
and show me the way
because I just want to talk
and hear the things you have to say.

(Cara May Rockwell, I just wanted to ask you a few questions...please don't fight the real answers because I need to know how you truly feel....was I ever apart of your heart? If I was am I still apart of it or have you already pulled me from it? It hurts so much knowing that I still have you in my heart and I don't know whether or not I am in yours...I don't know what to do because I still care so much for you and I just want to be friends again but you don't want to be mine anymore...I'm losing everyone I love.)

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