Together Again

I crawl up in a ball
hoping to disappear,
i need you here with me
to wipe away my tears

you had to leave this world
you were living in so much pain,
i wish you were here so bad
but i don't want to feel like that again

I saw the way you lived your life
cutting to help forget your fears,
and every time we talked
it would be ended by your tears

your body was so badly beaten
but the pain was unseen,
you held it all inside of you
just wanting to yell and scream

I'm sorry i couldn't help you
but i tried so very hard,
i couldn't get it through to you
that your heart is forever scared.

And i always wanted to be there
even when you pushed me away,
i would stand beside you forever
day after miserable day.

And even if you hated me
i would never leave your side,
i could never let you suffer
i didn't ever want you to die.

Your life became too much
you had to let it all go,
there's just one last thing
i just thought i should let you know.

soon it will be my turn
to end this retched life,
I'll be there to visit you
with one last cut of my knife.

and the day that i see you
and can look into your eyes,
i know we're together again
i know I've finally died.