I really want to love you

I really want to love you
with all my giving heart
i really want to be with you
but my worlds been torn apart
i thought I'd expelled my demons
but there back and in control
shit girl i really do need you
but I'm in the deepest hole
i really want to love you
but i don't know what it means
your the best thing that ever happened
but my world is torn at the seams.
I'm dazed confused and stumbling
in a drunk and shameful mess
i really wanna be with you
but my demons know me best
they take me on these journeys
of , vice of gambling and fear
they make me crawl in circles
like , I'm driving but they steer
i really want to love you
with all my giving heart
i really want to love u
but i just don't stand a chance .